28.

After a few weeks, im back. lol. Im sitting at starbucks chilling alone. Enjoying me PERFECT SUNDAY! ;)

After two weeks of Raya's holidays, I found out what's the answer I want. yeap. We didnt talk in the school but I heard alot about him from my friend. He wants to talk to me that day (monday), but too bad.. I was talking with my friend at the corridor. and (thursday) we reached the school at the same time, I think he saw me. I keep follow him at the back because his speed is seriously, DAMN. he is an athlete lol and (friday) he joined us during PJK. omg damn funny lah! he seriously a dumb with volleyball. I have no idea why I keep laughing at him. Lol!! suddenly out of control But at the same time I know, he didnt try to ignore me. yeah. and just because of this small tiny thing, made my FLYDAY. :) I hope I can be friends with him from now on. because everything starts from friendship right? ngek ngek HAHA. but I dont think he is the person who will accept a girl who love him for a long time, cause not everyone thinks that is sweet/ romantic/ whatever. lol I think Ill just keep my feelings to him inside and tell him at the correct timing. Actually I really hope he can go for sports school cause his result is really not that good. lol quite a stalker Don't ask me how the f*** I get to know his result, although me and him not in the same class, but am seriously more than a FBI. hahaha. But of course la, if he really transfered, I will miss him alot alot alot. Cause I know if he transfered, we straight away got 0% of communication. Hmm.

I don't know what's my feeling right now, cause Im super confuse. Sometimes, I really hope he can disappear in front of my eyes... cause he don't  even cherish a girl that  wait so long for him and do whatever just to get some attentions from him. But at the same time, I know, if he really want to make it, he will. He's not noob, I confirm he got his own plans.. :) I respect his answer. Nowadays, I really do appreciate the time in school, cause that is the only place I can look at him and some talks with him. I used to dream alot nowadays, hahaha dreaming some stupid stuffs about him and me. I really hope I can get what I want. :)

27.

Finally, Im back to blog. After a year.
How's life? :) Im good and yeah, Im tough and strong girl now. :) thanks for leaving me, and I learned how to start my new life without you. 2013 going good and smooth, although there is still have a lot of missions, problems or whatever for stopping me. But I believe that nothing is going to stop me from my persistance. I do everything that I think is right and no one is going to stop me.

I know your life is great now, having such a nice, kind hearted girlfriend. :) yeap, im falling in love with another person now. Is quite complicated now, cause I confessed to him. But, the answer was not the answer I want. but I know, no pain no gain right. Sometimes Im wondering, what if Im a perfect girl? *dream dream dream* lol

2013 is a new beginning for me, I start everything that I never try before. I joined cheerleaders. (Warriorz) and of course Warriorz joined the latest competition. Although we didn't get into the first five, but I know we can do it better next time. GO FIGHT WIN!
Here is some pictures of us (Warriorz Cheer Team)

My stunt group. The skinniest stunt. hahaha

Pmr is coming, and I did 'some revision' lol some. Im lazy lahh. *as usual my pattern* hahaha. C'mon we must enjoy our holidays right. *hiak hiak* Gah, I will start my revision again very sooon. Cause I don't want to fail any of my papers. At least I pass lah right. I don't wish to squeeze into Science class, cause I don't want to add on account. Cause I know there must be a lot of  homework. HAHA imma a lazy person.  Wish me good luck la! :D

Here comes some latest picture of me :b #girlsbeinggirls

yeap. I did tattoos on my both arms this year. :)

' LIFE ISN'T FAIR, BUT IT'S STILL GOOD.' #qotd

26.

October 12 2012 

How are you, Stranger?

I'm back to the original me. I can live without a phone right now, cause no one will call me or text me even i turn off my phone and on it again, is still the same. I miss the time how we use to talk every day and texted each other and talking about non-sense. But, why...?

From the day we talked until now, I still can remember everything that you said. All of the words meant so much to me. Do you know that? My dear, im tired on your lies. And now, you leave and I leave too.

I don't wish to go back to last time, I don't regret that i met you. Because of you, i bring up myself to another level. I know how to appreciate people who appreciate me and I know how to love a person that love me back too. I cried, I tried, now im tired. I'm tired for giving out so many effort to ask you to stay,  I'm tired crying every night just because I miss your voice, Im tired to love you....

I don't wish we can turn back to friends. Sorry, I'm afraid that I'll fall in love with you again and I guess you too.

In this 196 days, I learned a lot of things. Thank you and Bye.

25.

14 September 2012 

'I wish we would just give up , cause the best part is falling. '


Are you happy? If you're not please leave me. I want you to be happy. I really can't understand what are you thinking about. You say you'll take good care of my heart but do you really understand what i'm thinking? What is ' i don't know' when i'm asking you. Is this the best answer you want to give me? My dear. The problem is from you not me...

Nowadays, where you go, what you doing, you won't tell me. What happen to you. Am I have the qualification to know where are you and what are you doing? If you're not telling me where are you how the fuck i know where are you? At least left a message before you leave your house or going to no wifi area... Do you know the feeling like waiting a person everyday everynight and that person really don't give a fuck on you. Hell man. you want to try this feeling? come on , i let you try this. I'll sure you say you feel nothing cause you don't love me. :)

I know the answer why you don't want to settle all this problems. Because your heart changed. Seriously, if you really love a person you'll give the best thing to that person no matter what happened. You'll tell that person everything. You'll share, you'll care, you'll feel sad, you'll get jealous, you'll become crazy when you don't know where are the person. But , will you? No. You don't. Seriously, YOU DON'T. Because YOU CHANGED.

Am I important to you? 

Please don't do some childish thing. Unfollow me? Well. How old are you dy huh? so immature thinking? Come on....... I'm not angry because of you unfollow me but why you did this? Because I'm not famous enough to appear on your following list? or I'm not hot, classy, sexy, rich enough?

Fucker. I lost all my dignity because of you. Don't you appreciate? Well. You don't appreciate anything. Don't tell me you don't deserve any girl. If you say like that don't let me know after you leave me you go and find a girl and fall in a relationship with her. Don't let me know you getting marry. I'll slap you and kill you into pieces.

Please think twice before you speak any shit words. If you don't prove it, everything is still the same. I don't believe on words, I believe on actions. Get it?

Do you really know how it feels like when you're spending everything for a person that don't care about you? its really hurt. I spent my times, my tears, my happiness, just because i want you to be with me on everything. But do you know the words you told me really hurt me? Fucker stop that.

I Don't Hate Love , I Hate The Person Who Plays With Love. 

24

September 9 2012

Hey. I'm back on blogging. 


Relationship? Noo. What i get is Relationship. I wait for so many months , weeks , days , hours , minutes , seconds. But what i get at last? You ask me to leave you? and not the first time you ask me to leave. Hey Boy, im going to tell you what i really want to tell you. :)

You deserve a better girl. Yay, I'm not perfect. But no one is perfect too. Not every girl can endure your temper. Not every girl can stay up until midnight to wait for your replies. Not every girl can everyday cry for you and ask you not to leave her. Not every girl can don't care about her own dignity and ask you to stay beside her. Not every girl can always send a lot of messages or calls just because she want you to reply. Not every girl can spent everything just because she want you to love her more and take care about her.

I ady told you 'I Love You' but what you told me ? You say you want single life, but you say you love me? yay, if you love me prove it to me. :) I'm smart. I can see and i can feel it. Please, im not stupid ok? You say you're busy but why you can upload pics on instagram update twitter or facebook? you can't lied on me. :) Everytime you called me but i just can't stay mad on you. Why? because I Love You.

Please. Do not play a girl's heart you may destroy her life. Please appreciate what you have now and don't let the one who really love you slip away. You may regret and the one who really love you won't come back to you anymore. Be smart people.

23.

Wooohooooo , two more days to go . Holidays is coming dudey ! Saturday going to Pavillion to shopping with my girl :D <3 Starting to plan for my holidays . hmmp. anyone want to join me ? how about a trip to Genting ? 3days 2 nights huh ? feel like its awesome o.O

Ohmy , i think i should start doing some exercise . im getting fat :(  anyone want to go swimming jogging or anything else ? le me dont want forever alone D:  . Being alone is SUCKS . WORST THING EVER ! GRRRRR

Trying out everything that i never try before . Its AWESOME ! :D

Next Target : Birkenstock , G-Shock , OriginalFake Tee , DSLR , Jerseys , Topshop .  i need more cash :/ and i need a part-time job . anyone introduce some job for me ? hmmmp .

Alright , everyday keep waiting like a boss , become more patient and patient . Wow , new homework for me ya ? God Bless . -.- 

22 . Exams Week .

Well . Exams you're not suitable for me , how about break up ? Friendzone ? Please . :( Argh , FML . Oh , my science dissapointed me so so so so much . I try to memorise all the functions of our organs but . wtf ? Fine . Skipp . I've been waiting for so long . OhMyGod . Holidays please come faster . I need to buy a lots of things . And , I need a lot of cash too . HAHA . Bless me . Next saturday ! Shopping day ! :D Teeheee x) 28/5 my primary best friends , Jia Hui  leaving Malaysia dy . Wow , hope you all the best dude ! :) K.I.T  Lots of love <3 <3 <3 :)

The next things is . Im not yet ready for my Moral test . Study group everyday izit will change the result become better ? i hope it works. :X GOGO FIGHTING . 

Life Goes On .

怎么大家最近都这样吖. :( 为什么上帝你就不能给每一位都快乐呢 ? 真的很不公平. 上帝 我们什么都不求 只求每一天都快乐 不能吗 ?  真的 每次听到朋友那么不开心 我的心真的是很痛很痛 为什么 ... ( : ( 少一些事情发生那就好啦 其实有时候只要我们不去想不去理那么就没事了. 总是要学会 听了就算 明天会更好. :)  每个人都在学习怎样去面对挑战 我们要做强者 不能别挑战打败 :)  有些东西就别去想了 顺其自然就好 没有人逼你往前走 累了就休息下 可是绝对不能放弃 因为幸福只在前面. 幸福是要靠自己的双手去争取的. :)  只要自己快乐就好啦 不需要把自己逼到去墙角. 人生有多少个十年 好好珍惜才好啊. 没有人能比你自己更了解你自己 所以要把自己照顾的好好的 这样活在这世界上才有价值 :)  一定要记住 我们每个人活在这世界上不是为了取悦任何人 要是别人亏待你什么就让他们吧 因为他们活在这世界上也不是为了取悦你吖 :) 总是要留一点空间给自己 这个叫自我尊重. :)  你连自己都不尊重 你还要求谁来尊重你呢 ? x) 总是要多爱自己 不要老是为别人着想 分分中你为着的那个人根本不值得你去爱 :) 别在做愚蠢的人 是时候醒来了. 如果别人不珍惜你 那也算了 因为他们有权利 他们不是的亲人 :)  If You Dun Respect Yourself , You Wont Get Any Respect From Others. 现在有的玩就玩 不要为任何人改变 除非你觉得你改变是值得的 :) 尝试去微笑的面对 事情会变得更好 别人说什么就随便听听 反正你不会吃亏.  

我每次都被别人敷衍 敷衍我的人我是不会回你的. :) 我没那么多时间去想要回你什么 如果你真的没话说那干脆就别来找我聊天. x) 这个就是我对待人的方式 别说我过分我只是做好本分. 我也有底线 你超过了 那么对不起哦 你可以滚. :) 我很尊重我自己的 你要是是那种厚脸皮的 没关系 我那刀把你的皮削薄它 . :) 

我爱的人你可以把多一点的时间放在我身上吗 ? 一点点也好吖 :) 我是女生我也需要别人疼. 如果你不需要我你可以开口 这样我可以早点离开你 好让我有后路可以走. 如果爱我就珍惜我 我的要求就那么简单. :) 希望你真的明白我为什么会这样只因我是女人. 

不同的人就会有不同的想法 我只是纯粹分享出我心中的感受 如果这一扁东西令你们感到不舒服的话 那对不起. :) 

20. Happy Holidays :)

Teheeeeeeeee , 从 Genting 回来. 一个字 SIOK :P 再那边冷到她妈妈酱 T T

actually 没有什么东西写得啦 目的是 update 一下 :b

那个死犯贱 哈哈哈哈 ITS SHOWTIME :) 整个事情还在 processing . 在等多久一点啦. :) Jiimuii 们 我们要发威了 :P

ahleh , where is my man ? i need youu . :( 

19 . FOREVER ALONE :33

状态不好 不够 Steady T^T 有个猪终于都回来找我了 . 我太久没跟你聊电话了拉　等明天 XD 我真的真的很多心事. heh , 我应该 handle 到吧. 我觉得 我把所有的东西都放下了. 不知道是好事还是坏事. :) 我真心真意的祝福 呵呵 还不谢谢我 ? XD

结婚那件事 真的很好看啦 T^T 接下来我要看 GHOST RIDER 和 TITANIC :333 人吖人 快快book我 我们一起去看 :PP 今天我又受不了食物的诱惑 /.\ 一直吃吃吃 我都behtahan我自己 :P

情人节过了 接下来就是考试了. 我干 . 上课都不懂老师 yap meh fong . = = 那些老师每天在那边碎碎念. = = 我这次 FAIL FAIL FAIL !

WTF ? :P

Goodnight Peoples . :]

18 . - steady steady -

我想把旋律来充满生命的每一个部分. :) 

听了很多总是觉得没什么帮助. 今天 就是今天 跟了一个人分享 自己的事情. TA 给了很多帮助. 真的 谢谢你 :']

原来 我一直持守的 付出的 努力的 并不多. 我不了解你. 这是我自己的问题 不能怪别人. 我没有怪任何人 真的. :) 我自己的选择是怎样 别人想阻挡也阻挡不到吧 ?

反正大家都没错. :) 爱一个人是没有错的.

#LikeALouSaii .

17 . 我 还撑得下去吗 ?

发生了很多很多. 一时之间我真的接受不到. :) 我给了你酱多 结果怎样 ? Haih , 我知道我没有权力 没有资格 可是为什么会变成这样 ? why ? 我真的很想知道 .

情人节 也就是你们最重要的一天. 我会真心真意祝福 (吗) ? :) 发生过那么多事情 你真的忘了吗 你真的放下了 ? 真的想清楚了 ? :']

一脚踏三船 两船的伤怎样还 ? :) 

要讨厌都是讨厌自己吧 固执到死. haih . 姐妹们 不好意思啦 让你们担心了. i need some times . :)

XXX 你 你 你 . 我忍. :)


fuck yea . my mood just like a piece of shyt . .:. 

16 . 你 会看吗 ?

T0DAY 本来是很开心的 可是看到料一些我不该看的东西 . 我承认我是 8 瓜 可是终于看穿你真实的一面. 对 ! 你是要公平我信你 可是你自己偷偷做了些什么 ? 我真的不知道 不是别人讲 我都不懂. 你跟我说不要提起她 可是为什么 你自己却偷偷跟 TA 有关系 ? 你当我盲的 聋的 没有感觉的吗 ? 今天我看到了 我不知几心酸. HAIH 我又被人骗了一次. 多久了你都没有睬我 找我都是问关于她的事 我呢 ? 我不是人吗 ? 我也是女生 我也是要别人疼得. 我找你 你就敷衍我. 我算什么 ? 我知道我自己 CHEAP 这个我不需要任何人讲. 我 dor lan yea . 今天是有点尴尬 连一句话都没有讲过. haih , 心痛吖心痛. :'] 自己拿来的吧 ?

他不爱我. 我知道 . 自己伤就够. :) 其实是 ; 一个人的寂寞 两个人的错. 这句话没有错. 每天我都在等 我们几时能回到以前 什么都 king . 那时候的日子真的很令我怀念. 我可以再一次拥有这一些日子吗 ? 我知道我自己想的太多 我知道不值得 可是这不是我所要的吗 ? [等待].

单恋没有错 要怪就怪自己没有用. 放弃不到他 不能怪任何人. 自己陷入陷阱 自己伤. 痛了才懂得如何爬起来 可是这些都需要时间 不是随便说说就做到的. Haih :(

男人男人多希望你是好人. :'] 我等了酱久又是为了什么 ? 你自己知道吧 ? ;/

15. I Never Had A Dream Come True

哇 昨天那个雨下到 sibeh 大 -.- Wai Lum 的爸爸还讲昨天几像2012 XD wasai , 祷告祷告不要将快世界末日 :X 昨天我就坐在客厅等电来 -.- sien 到妈妈酱 那个修理电的人更好笑 他跟我们讲 ; ini bukan saya punya , tm punya XD walao 这句够力炸到我 囧吖

今天早上 很早就弹了起身 准备去 xuan wei 的家 :) 全世界 ready 料 then 就去载 wai lum .

- SKIP -

一直到我们去 TS . 坐 LRT 我想了很多东西 :3 haih , 算. :) 2pm 我们就到达目的地 :P 一去到那边 就去吃东西 :P 原谅我 因为我真的很饿 XD THEN , 走走走. Neway , Cinema 全部多人到 behtahan. 我跟 wailum 就去 Mid -.-

去到那边买料票 我又去吃过 XD Sushi King :3 在里面我们一直拍照 哈哈哈哈 自恋到死 :P [ 所有照片在 wailum 那边 ] :3 讲真我们都没有走到街 -.- 我们看料 Ah Beng The Movie . 很好笑 XD 我在里面笑到很像神经病 XD

明天 Roller with Xuan Wei , Liau , Sinn Yee , Wai Lum 还有不懂谁 XD 明天玩到癫癫 :3

我爱你 你懂吗 ? 回到从前好吗 ? :( 

14. -NoTitle-

#LikeALouSai.

今天一早就给人吵醒 haihs. 你跟我讲 是不是很不爽 我要自然醒吖 你有没有搞错吖. -.- after that , 我就去准备准备. :)

12.15 往 Bukit Jalil LRT station 一个人去 TS 交货和走街. 在 LRT 里面都没有靓仔看的 闲掉咯 then , 我就一直看着我的电话 wah very quite very quite. 我对面的情侣一直讲讲讲讲个不停 excuse me , 你有看到我一个人吗 还讲到那么过瘾 care 一下我的感受麻 TT and then 我就在想等下要怎样过马路吖 TT shyt .

到料那边 我就一直走走走 晒到妈妈酱 -.- argh. 过马路的时候 我用一招就是跟着他们过 WAHAHAHA :3 after that . 就走进去 TS.

交货的时候 我朋友问 ; 你朋友咧 . 我就讲; 今天我一个人吖 :3 她 给我吓到 HAHA. after that , 我就在里面走来走去 . 好才给我买到一个东西 不然我一定sibeh 不爽. 钱都没有用到很多 不是很爽 actually. :3 then STARBUCKS.

我在里面一个小时就走回去 LRT Station 回家. 走下走下 看到一班男生. -.- 我都不懂他们是谁 他们又叫得出我的名 厉害厉害 -.- . 等着 LRT 的时候 有个女的跟她的男朋友 一直看着我 娘喂 我一个人搭 LRT 回家有罪吖 你有人陪很大咩 TT 欺负弱小吖你们两个 ! TT But , 我是很有 standard 的 摆一个脸色给他们看 wahahah :3

就一个人坐在 LRT 里面没有东西做 [发呆] -.- THEN 我对面又是情侣 娘吖 TT suddenly , 我很不舒服 -.- oh noo , i need bodycheckup very very soon . god bless me. .__.

一个人可以走街 可以看戏 可以吃东西 可以睡觉 可以做很多事情 可是一个人不能 pak tor. Single 的快快找一个 Double 的好好珍惜 . :)

-END- 

星期五 最后一天上课 :D HAHAHA 很多人都自己放假 NAH :3 我们都很乖 只是觉得政府给的假期不够所以 kaki 放假  WOOOHOO :p

later , Mid Valley :3  teeheeeeeeee. <3

okay , 重点开始. errkhem . > 从一月到现在我每天想的都是一样. 重来都没有 stop 过. 爱情不是每个人都玩得起 拿得起就要放得下 说了就算 but . 不是将容易的 :( 试问你曾经为一个人流下了多少眼泪 为TA付出了多少时间 ? 爱情真的把一个人弄得不像样 ;)  珍惜你身边关心你的每个人 惜福吖 :'] 不然等你失去了 一定会后悔.  :']  haih.

我要做的已经做完 我还在等待奇迹出现的一天 亲爱的 我爱你 :] <3 



LAST ; Gong Hey Fat Coi , Ang Pau Mari Mari :P <3
新年快乐 :) 举起手唱啦啦啦啦 ~

12. 废话一大堆 :p

2012 :3

最近都很显下 :P 睡醒 读书 放学 FB 睡觉 XD ohh yeah , 开始不想读书了 -.- 有没有搞错 SMK SRI SENTOSA 做莫酱麻烦. -.- 吃屎去吧 校长 :3

才开学的第三个星期 就发生了那么多事  :3 wooohoooo . 烦吖 . #LikeALouSai  星期五不打算读 朋友们 JOM 我们去 gai gai :P

有缘无份 ? HAHA 我还在等待. :)

新年要到料咯 等着收红包 到处去 wet :P

没什么好讲的 也懒得写 cincai 更新 不好意思 XD 

11. Holidays :]

AH HA :P

圣诞节要到咯 送礼物给我 :P

整个假期都很忙 aiiks -.- finally , 要开学料 wee :P

22/12/2011 - 今天去 IOI . -.- shyt la 一个两个要我等 好意思吗 ? XD then , MCD again :3 itu KS keep snowflake snowflake , 一拳给他死 -.- 不理他我们直去唱 K [ REDBOX] :D woohoo , 我 sibeh 就没有唱歌料 一唱吓死你 XD

一进到去只有那个 Daniel Tan 一个人high -.- after that , turn me turn me ! XD 死命点歌 那个pearly chan 就一直唱我点的歌 XD 唱唱下 KS 跳进来 -.- 结果还不是坐一下又给人赶出去 :P 我们三个就在里面 high 来 high 去 XD

到最后一首 我跟pearly 就diam diam. 给那个 daniel tan自high . OMG 他的声音大到喇叭都 boom -.- behtahan.

AFTER REDBOX , SNOWFLAKE , GO HOME :P

今天就是酱. 本来不打算写的因为 睡不着 :P

希望不会因为他而每天失眠 :( 

10. SABAH TRIP :P

第一天

第二天

第三天

第四天

第五天

第六天[喜怒哀乐] :D

第七天

第八天 [血光之灾] - - 

第九天 [Kinabalu山] 

hualalalala , 刚从SABAH回来 :P 在那边的九天终于有一些时间让我休息. 虽然大部分的时间都是在讲电话谈audition的东西可是还是玩得很开心 Thanks God ! :D

Nah , 我每一天都有拍一张照片给你们看咧 我是不是很爱你们? :3

26/11 < AUDITION ! TT 临时换完全部东西. 希望我们可以进到 semi 啦 ONE MIND WIN ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D <3

9. 电影情人节快乐 :D

errkhem , 虽然今天是情人节 but 我不是跟情人过我跟朋友过 :P

昨天很早就睡了不舒服 TT 所以今天一早就弹起身准备去 xiiao ching 家练歌 ! Rolling in the deep , 我跟你死过. :O audition audition audition TT

11-12.30 [ 练歌当中] SKIP.

12.35 从 Sri Petaling 搭 LRT 出发去到 MID 买衣服 ! :P RAWR. 又搭Taxi 又搭LRT , 搭到 MID 都一点半料argh , 浪费料很多时间 :(( nevermind shopping time ! :p 一直走来走去 选来选去 :3 结果买料两件衣 :( 不够吖 ! </3 i need more and more and more . @@  and hor , 今天在 MID 看到 Sharon ; Kar le le le Peng <3



17/11 -25/11 飞去 Sabah 咯 我亲爱的朋友不要太想念我蛤 我不会买 souvenirs 给你们的 :P [坏到我吖] SMS 我啦 这段时间应该很少上 facebook 的拉 <3 0163789903 :)

明天也是从早忙到晚 :( tired tired tired. </3 i need more and more energy ! TT 




朋友们 , i miss you all so muchy :( <3 的空出来喝喝茶啦喂. Starbucks :P ON ? Teehee X)

单身61天 :)
亲爱的 快回来我的身边.